I just scribble away
I wait for everything to just freeze in its track but nothing or anyone ever does.
My eyes get heavy as time passes by but I'm not ready to sleep.
I'm afraid every moment I spend sleeping. I spend wasting time away.
My mind is roaring with sounds and the past, but recent events.
For some odd reason.. "he" appears in each one.
My mind repeats every word I think of over and over again just waiting to speak another.
I strain away from the action so I don't have to feel the pain, exaggeration, and the agony and heart hurt of "him"
It's not him causing my pain.. for heavens sake he doesn't even know if I like him. The "pain" i feel is NEED.
But here I am writing what I feel. Scribbling away.. letting time pass me by.